Her Tears

An extract from my novel.


I was tired of crying. I felt the all too familiar sensation of tears readying themselves within me. I screwed my eyes up tight, refusing to let them roll down my face, as if it might make me stronger if I managed not to cry. I felt the tears burning my eyes and after a few seconds I relented. Hot tears streamed down my cheeks. Once I let them flow, they were encouraged at my vulnerability and they flourished all the more.

I tried to regain some sense of control before I lost it altogether so that these tears wouldn’t turn into gut wrenching sobs. As soon as that anguished moment came, when a sob let itself free, it was so hard to stop them. There were times I actually welcomed the tears openly and expectantly. A familiar friend who let me liberate the agony inside me; who let me feel my grief as raw as it was after having to force a smile and face the day.

Some nights the crying only stopped after exhaustion or once I had literally run out of tears to cry and I was left inconsolable with dry sobs still wrenching themselves free. How desolate and tormented I felt on those nights when the tears ran out before I fell asleep. Sometimes all I could hope for was at the very least to fall asleep before I fell apart any more.




  1. Sister on with the strive! Subhaanallah!

    All your posts are applicable in our every day lives… which makes it easy to relate to.
    My sister in deen keep going… Jazakillahu khair katheera

    ***please follow me @ruqiyajannathi
    And also tag #IslamIs4TruthOrSilence
    This is for my recent blog…
    It’s about nothing but the truth… without any sprinkles…
    I’ll be talking about things that are rarely talked about in shaa Allah…

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    • Aww thank you so much ukhti your comment really made me smile! I’m just over half way through writing it now lol
      Aww ameen and may Allah bless you with success and happiness ameen!
      Aww ☺️💜

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